Can I be honest for like five minutes??? Transparent even??? The last week and a half of parenting has been rough. When I say rough, I mean rough... like in all caps, bold, italic, size 25 point font... like
R O U G H
The last week and a half just seemed like we were dealing with fight after fight after fight between the two kids. Back talking. Argue with everything we tell or ask of them. Kids being selfish and angry and whiny and... you get the point. It hasn't been all "our lives are so Instagram and Facebook perfect and fun" kind of stuff around our home.
The last week and a half has actually been draining.
D R A I N I N G
It felt like we were living in and parenting out of frustration the vast majority of the day. And by the time bedtime rolled around, all we could manage to do was collapse on the couch and stare in total silence.
And. I. Hate. Living. In. Frustration. It's just, well...
F R U S T R A T I N G
And living and parenting that way is simply not healthy... For me. For Jami. And for our kids.
Then it hit me Saturday afternoon where most of my moments of clarity hit me... in the shower.
It does absolutely no good to get frustrated.
I know... mind blowing, right! Boom! Mind. Blown. It does absolutely no good to get frustrated in parenting my kids. It doesn't do any good to get frustrated when they bicker and fight with each other. When they whine during chores. Or when they throw fits.
It's so simple. Yet in that moment, if felt like a huge revelation. And in that moment, all of the frustration that I felt in the last week and half washed away. In that moment, I realized that, if I don't want my kids to live and relate in frustration, I can't live and parent in and out of frustration. It was a moment of re-focus in how I parent. It was a moment where I realized that if I want my kids to change, I first need to change. And so in that moment, I decided that I will be intentional about doing my best to NOT get frustrated in parenting my two kids.
Will there be times where I will start to get frustrated?
A B S O L U T E L Y
It's only been a day and a half, and I've already felt myself on the edge of frustration. But it's in those moments where I've taken a five second mental timeout to re-focus my energy and thoughts in order to be a better parent and life example for my kids. It's gonna take me being intentional about not allowing myself to get frustrated. But that's what my kids deserve, me being intentional about parenting and leading by example. And in doing so, I think all of our lives will be lived in less frustration so we can get back to posting how perfect our lives are on Instagram and Facebook.